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04:51pm 15/02/2006
mood: chipper
Totally forgot i had a livejournal. this shit kicks ass!!!

I want everyone to know that i love you.

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Holy shit!!! Why did this have to happen?!   
05:29pm 03/08/2005
mood: indescribable
Ahhhhhhhhhhh....yesterday was the worst day of my life...and the scariest.Chris had to go to the hospital becasue he went into convulsions and couldnt talk or move, he did some shit and took some pills.I waited at the hospital for 8 hours before they funally decided to tell me what the fuck was going to happen to him. He's alive thank god but if they brought him in any later he would have been dead! wtf. I thank sean, jessica and amanda so much for being there when all this shit happened and i want to say thank you to patrick for taking me to the hospital i appreciate you guys being there by my side.
Chris lost alot of brain cells and his liver is totally fucked but he'll be alright thank god.He can talk perfectly normal and he's still as smart as can be but he needs to get some sleep from all the shit that hes been doing.The whole time i was at the hospital he didnt even know i was there and he didnt even know who anyone was.I was so glad to finally go in and see him ...he had this big smile on his face when i walked into the room and he begged me not to leave as the nurse pushed me out the fucking door. The nall this shit happened but they let him go home in the end and i got to talk to him and he started to cry.

I dont know if anyone of you could know how it feels to almost lose the love of your life. I dont even want you to know how it feels. Im so fucking glad he's okay...but the thing is they are making him go to a rehab center for god knows how long and what the fuck am i supposed to do then? I dont even know if they will let me visit him.Hopefully he'll put me down as a family member or something.He's so upset he thinks i wont wait for him while hes in that place. Fuck yes i will. hes my boy for life im here for him no matter what the fuck happens,. it's almost been 7 months im not giving up on him., i swear i love this boy more then i love myself. i will do anything for him and he should know that.

Yea thats my story.....im so close to just fucking die.
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Cool new pics for all of you   
07:16pm 27/07/2005
mood: busy
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It really makes you think...

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Those are for Robin<3

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I'll hurt you.

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Smile pretty for the camera!

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I can see right through you...

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Peace to ya mutha

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I am the pretty hate

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Bring the pain

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I love this girl<333333333

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Yummy ladies<3

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Sweet talk.

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Cool glasses oh yeah!

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Grip it tightly and squeeze.

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Representing the CC. Chatsworth Chancellors!!!
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07:50pm 01/07/2005
  What the fo shizzle........5 months of pure bliss with christopher.Feels great to be in love...
He's my boy for life i swear.
This boy is so wonderful.........yummy too.
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01:47am 25/03/2005
mood: amused
Ice Ice BabyCollapse )
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09:00pm 17/03/2005
  In class.Bored.
I miss everyone.
I fucking love christopher.
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pictures people!!!   
07:14pm 23/01/2005
mood: horny































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Fun night   
05:22pm 23/01/2005
mood: lazy
Yestermaday i went to the cobalt with the lovely kristen,paulina and jessicka..
There were cool cool bands...code orange,oneworlsolution,angel city outcast,homesick abortions,killradio,and bad acid trip.
So goooooooood.
Moshing was fun fun but only me and kristen went in once again.Kristen got all bruised up.Sadness.
I got hit in the face by a fat dude.And he stepped on my foot as well.bastard.
ehhhhh.......We are next fri and sat for the folowing bands....
L.A.O, R.F.D, skinflick,the scuffs, and some other thingers.
um um um um.

Well i be at kristens house and we be watching black ppl fighting on t.v. thats always fun.

hey this is kristen and im saying hi cuz i can sooooooooo hi! and geoff is hott.
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09:19am 22/01/2005
mood: cheerful
Well yesterday was a pretty cool day i thinker.
Uh after skewl i went to paulinas house with kristen and they ate noodles.
Then we went to kristens house and got ready for the mall.
We took the sexy pictures at the mall and saw alot of cool peeps.
I got humped by a black girl.Im traumatized for life...help me.
Then we decided it was cobalt time.
The mother came to pick us up and we were there.
I missed blasphemy squad....shame on amanda.
But the other bands were gooooood.
Heh spencer was there and michael,geoffery,some fat dude that i remember,and some other people.They were all gay though.I wished kelvin would have come.<33
Spencer was drunk and he picked kristen up and took her into the mosh but he dropped her! funniest thing.
Then me and kristen went in.Pretty fun.
Paulina your a loooser!!!! your coming in next time!!!loser.
So the night was pretty cool i say.
Then i went home and watched a movie and talked to kelvin for a little bit.
I think we are going tonight.
And paulina is coming in even if i have to carry her in.<333333333
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Lalalalalalalalalala.....whats under my bed??   
05:19pm 20/01/2005
mood: sick
Hey peeps.
Well....i havent been to skew lin a couple of days cuz there is something wrong with my tonsils or something.I think its the smoking thats irritating them tho.So yea.I'll fix that.
I have to spray shit up my nose for my...nose problem.It blows.
Tomorrow im hoping to take pics with the p ladies.Sexy,no? oh yea and harmonie too.If shes not too cool for us.Wow well.
Oh im planing on dying my hair red a bright red.I mightlook like raggedy ann but i'll take that risk..anyway shes kinda hot.lol.
Life sucks and i want to shoot someone.
I havent seen nicole,bre,mellisa,tony,ray,or romella in the longest time and im really sad.Im sorry that i dont come visit anymore but i'd just rather not be over there.Some of you know why.But i love you all and i hope to see you soon.Wait what the hell im going over there soon.Fuck it im going to stop being such a fucking pussy.I will see you ladies and dude soon i promise i love you guys so much.<3333333333333
Fuck im changing my ways.
I say that alot and i never go through with it.I have major problems with myself that i need to fix.I always complain that everyone else is my problem but really its just me.Its me and my immatureness i dont think thats a word but whatever, from this day thre is going to be a whole new amanda.
I promise this time i will go through with it.I will change for the better.I will be a better person and make peoples lives a little easier, and for you people who ihave hurt or annoyed i am sorry for the last fucking time.
I shouldnt have to apologize..i should just stop doing what im doing.I love you all.
Im sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....

I alwas seem to repeat myself and say that im going to do something but it never actually happens.Its going to happen this time i swear to you.

You know whats sad??? im throwing up blood. This hasnt happened in the longest time.I need to go to the hospital and fins out what the fuck is wrong with me.seriously i hate having this problem.people think im lieing when i say i throw up blood.Im not lieing i mean why the fuck would i lie about something like thaT?...

...Im sorry kelvin.I have to apologize for the way that i am.
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